Some Old Stuff

I'm looking at my USB and discovered I put a bunch of old poems I once had in a notebook, onto the computer.  I did not think I had my USB stick that long, but this could have very well came from this desktop computer I once had.

DJ


You’re just a stranger in the windy shadows to me
 I wish I had never met you
Can’t you let me be?
Then I wouldn’t be so sad
Why did you make it so complicated?
Why did you leave me?
These conversations are pointless
Why did you hurt me?
You treat everything like a joke
When I’m trying to be serious
If you think I’ll go back to you
Then you must be delirious

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Sunday 11/1/98
Nicole

Sometimes I feel like I’ll never be sane
Like I’ll never be whole
Like I’ll always be the blame
You were my friend but now you’re my foe.
You were never my friend
Why do you hate me so?
I thought I could trust you
I thought that you cared
But when it came down to me
Your judgment was impaired
It seems like every time
I meet a new guy or a friend
They seem to stab me in the back
And tell me the end
Now I know I know I’m sane
I know I’m whole
I know I’m not the blame
Because you were telling jealous lies
And did nothing but despise
Now I know you were never my friend
And I’m telling you the end Foe friend

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Today I was sad
But now I am glad
That I broke free
From all the pain you caused me
 You were nothing but trouble
You hop skipped on the double
You were free to roam
While I was forced to stay home
 You ran all around And f*cked every girl in town
I was nothing but your little toy
Taking care of our baby boy
 Now we are apart
And I feel in my heart
That I will be better
And live my life happily ever after

***

 All my pain and suffering in gone
I finally know where I belong
I took a drive in my car
 To figure out just how far
 I had to figure out what was going on
I now know where I belong
All my pain and suffering is now gone
I took a drive in my car
To figure out just how far

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I was going to put up with
All of your bullsh*t
But then it hit
Me that you’re not worth it
So why bother?
I quit
There are plenty of guys out in this world
That would take a chance with this girl
Who will accept me for who I am
And no matter what I do
He’ll still be my man

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Monday 1/26/98

Life is too short
You must go on to face the hurt
To find a new one that might
Cause you pain
You have nothing to lose
You have everything to gain
That’s the way things go in life
Don’t ask me why
All you have to do
Is just give life a try

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 9/22/98

You were the biggest loser that I ever met
You were the only one that I couldn’t get
You were the most confusing lover I ever had
Your confusion f*cked me up and made me sad
Then you left the way like a shadow would at nightfall
But unlike a shadow, you hide from all
Oh well! F*ck it!
Don’t need you
Go find someone else
Make them sad and blue

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Tuesday 12/8/98

I’m getting my life together
I’m proud of what I’ve done
I can finally feel some freedom in my accomplishments
Let’s see how far this goes
How far it will continue
I’ve had little encouragement along the way
But that’s OK
Because I’m doing it all on my own
In my accomplishments I finally found some freedom
I’m proud of what I’ve done
I’m getting my life together.

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Sunday 2/7/99

I look like a kid
I look like my mom
But who am I?
What am I about?
I have my mom's eyes
I have my son’s inspiration
Who am I?
What am I about?
I have my fathers’ likes and dislikes
My brothers’ comments
My friends bravery and positive attitude
And I have my grandma's good wisdom
Who am I?
What am I all about?

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7-7-99

Confusion has already sunk in for me
I don’t know what I’ll be doing
Or where I’ll be!
For one to be set off their course
Is just as easy as falling off their bike
Or horse
My thoughts have meanings
To all of my feelings
You can laugh and mock at the things I say and do
But I will be the one friend
Who will always be dear and true

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